Resolutions
Oct. 10th, 2003 07:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
allichatonI went to Helm's Deep again today, but I only did the treadmill for 20 minutes. Was really bored. And after I signed out, I used their scale (it's one of the old balance scales, not an electronic one) to weigh myself. 157.5lbs. *vhs* This has gotten me really depressed today. I've been down for a while because I noticed that my belly's gotten bigger. That's the one thing about my body that I hate. Thighs have never bothered me, hips have never bothered me, but my belly is the bane of my existence. I was *hoping* that weighing myself would give me reassurance that it was all in my head. Apparently, it's not. I am 2 lbs heavier than I was this time last year--that completely blew me away when I saw that on my weight charts on weightwatchers.com. And it is incredibly discouraging. If I remember my last weight correctly, I've gained about 10-15 lbs in the past month and a half to two months. I've felt like shit all day, since I discovered that.
I keep telling myself that I have not gotten fat. I am still wearing size ten jeans, and although my belly now pokes out over the waistband a bit, they are not tight. All my clothes still fit. But I don't *look* the same--as I said, my belly pokes out, and I hatehatehatehateHATE that. That's what's depressing me most about all of this. I don't want to go down another pants size. I don't really give a damn what I weigh. But I am superficial--so sue me. I care about how I look. And I don't like how I look with my bigger belly.
Anyway, I've made a few resolutions. First is to stay away from the damn frozen yogurt machine in Pippin. Damn thing is evil. Second is to do better on my points, even if I have to guess because the nutrition information isn't there. And no fudging on guessing--I'm really bad about it.
The third is exercise, and Erik has offered to help me keep to this one (purries, you're wonderful, hon :D:D). Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, I am going to go down to Helm's Deep and spend at least 40 minutes on the treadmill. Weekends are bonus, but I want to get it in at least three times a week.
And we'll see next Friday how well this worked...I'm going to be peeved if I haven't gone down...
(BTW, if anyone has any suggestions for aleviating boredom while using exercise machines, they would be greatly appreaciated. I suspect it's most of the reason why I dislike it so much. I've tried reading--the book bounces around while I'm speedwalking. Music helps, but it's not enough.)
I keep telling myself that I have not gotten fat. I am still wearing size ten jeans, and although my belly now pokes out over the waistband a bit, they are not tight. All my clothes still fit. But I don't *look* the same--as I said, my belly pokes out, and I hatehatehatehateHATE that. That's what's depressing me most about all of this. I don't want to go down another pants size. I don't really give a damn what I weigh. But I am superficial--so sue me. I care about how I look. And I don't like how I look with my bigger belly.
Anyway, I've made a few resolutions. First is to stay away from the damn frozen yogurt machine in Pippin. Damn thing is evil. Second is to do better on my points, even if I have to guess because the nutrition information isn't there. And no fudging on guessing--I'm really bad about it.
The third is exercise, and Erik has offered to help me keep to this one (purries, you're wonderful, hon :D:D). Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, I am going to go down to Helm's Deep and spend at least 40 minutes on the treadmill. Weekends are bonus, but I want to get it in at least three times a week.
And we'll see next Friday how well this worked...I'm going to be peeved if I haven't gone down...
(BTW, if anyone has any suggestions for aleviating boredom while using exercise machines, they would be greatly appreaciated. I suspect it's most of the reason why I dislike it so much. I've tried reading--the book bounces around while I'm speedwalking. Music helps, but it's not enough.)
